Uncertainty

Just the other day, JY jio me and Aln to meet up. I had thought that it was a normal gathering and had asked KZ along. Just as i was about to leave the house, JY msg to say that if i was going, she'd prefer that i came along. I had no choice but to tell KZ that we cld not go our for drinks but i still met him somehwere nearby for coffee.

By the time i reached Harbourfront, it was almost 10. The nightmare bus took 45 minutes!! Anyway, it turned out that JY had some family issues and both me and Alan gave her some advice. Hope it all turns out well for her. Its rather sad and that sorta set us both thinking of the uncertainty in live I told JY that the uncertainties were because it concerns people (ren).

Later that night, we went over to St James Power Station and Kai was and he popped over to meet us. He asked me if i was seriously getting married and said that he'd be very sad if i did. But i seriously think that he was not serious when he said that. Kai and i dated more than 10 years ago. The Kai that i liked back then is a very different person from who he is right now. It kinda saddens me to see him this way but i still wish him all the best. I must admit that i have considered how things will be liked if i ended up with him but i know that he can never give me the sense of security that Jeff gives me. So, its all pretty clear, in an SMS to Kai i said that this wasn't goodbye but deep in my mind i know it is.

Kai, this is goodbye. Goodbye to the days of cup noodles and chocolate cake..Goodbye to the memories at the river besides Omni Theatre..Goodbye to my young lover..Goodbye..

I will take your well wishes and blessings when i put on my wedding gown. I know u will be happy for me and that we can be good friends as ever. I wil still be there to give you any advice if you need me..Thanks for the memories.