Different way of looking at things...

Make Your Nightmares Productive

Resistance to change is a common feeling, especially when dealing with a change forced on you. Many management experts will tell you to battle your resistance and work on being open to change. But that resistance could be a powerful source of energy. Instead of trying to take a positive approach, indulge the dread. Get in touch with the negative feelings. Think about all the things that could happen. Then, make those nightmares your advantage. Since you know all the things that could go wrong,
you can plan the change in order to avoid them. Harness the power of your negative thinking and use your confidence and know-how to overcome even your worst nightmares.

Hurt..

I could have just gone to bed like every day so far but yesterday was one of those days where I just felt that I needed answers. Stupid! It came as no surprise that I was not going to get anything out of you. It didn't even seem like you were aware of the issue. But how could you when I have mentioned it in passing every now and then? This time it is just not quite the same as before. I think I will need some time to get over it. There are just too much questions left unanswered but more importantly, I am just tired of being in this relationship with myself. Writing emails that gets no answers, being the one who seems to be begging for some affection..I feel that I am losing myself. I see changes that I do not like. I hate it that I am getting calculative in loving you, I hate it that I am getting lazy to love..I am so afraid that I'll forget what it is like to love someone unconditionally. I can't even remember when was the last time I sent you an sms on the shuttle bus to work, telling you how I miss you and look forward to seeing you soon. I am so afraid that I will stop sending you emails to tell you how I love you and thank you for coming into my life. Why is it that we have forgotten what it is like to love each other? Maybe you haven't but I think I have. I have forgotten that to love is to accept your other half unconditionally for whatever issues they are facing. I need some time to come to terms that this is the way that things are going to be and that this is really who you are. I need some time to condition myself and not feel bitter towards you. The wound will take some time to heal and not hurt. This time I really hope that I can have some closure...dear, why is it that I feel you do not understand me anymore, can't you see how I am hurting...