Those moments...

There are those moments when you feel like you have so much pent up but there are just no outlets to let your steam out? I mean, if I let out a scream in my cube, my colleagues would think I have gone mad. So what can I do? Blogger is probably one of those outlets, created to allow us poor being enslaved by modernity to get a bit of our sanity back. Being about 9 weeks pregnant with #2, I have been feeling simply miserable for the last couple of weeks since MS has become full blown. Being the foodie that I am, it is agonising to feel hungry every 2 hours but yet not having appetite when food is placed in front of me. And when you attempt to put some food down the food canal, I feel full almost in an instant but that's not the worse part, the worse is when you feel your stomach churn and have the food come back out eventually. This unwell feeling has been getting to me and I am gripped by fear that I may fall in depression soon. I know Jeff tries to help but bringing me out once in a while but he has quite a bit on his plate with so much going on at home and at work, and it's not even including me, Josh and #2. And last night was simply a test of my endurance, not great to begin with, and also a sobering reminder of what we will need to go through again when #2 comes along. Both Jeff & I hardly slept cause Josh was waking up so often because his nose was all stuffy. You feel bad for him but a part of me felt even worse for myself. In the pregger state that I am in, you need all the rest that you can get, and even with proprt rest, I still feel tired, what more, interrupted and short naps throughout the night. Horror! But God is great and always provides, just when things have hit a low, the MS seems less horrid. Hopefully this will mark the end of MS for the rest of this pregnancy.